DUSTY STONES: NOTES ON A SUICIDE

30 Years Ago Today.

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On this day my mother ended her life in 1992.

What do I say? I watch the words hit the page this morning and I know if I charted the distance between them and the pulverizing impact of her suicide it would take more than a millennium to cross the divide.

The facts of it all sit like dusty stones – cold, and hauntingly still. It was the second time in the span of a year that she talked of ending her life. We had intervened the first time, and, for the moment, succeeded, at what I wonder. It only delayed the inevitable and in the days after her death, I would learn from her oldest friends that she had been talking about suicide since I was a boy. What had it been like for my father? I can’t imagine.

She called me Sunday August 9 to…

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The Healthiest Word

The woman asked me, “Why do you tell people you love them?”

I’d just said, “Love you, brother,” to the man who bagged up some groceries for me. The man always greets me with a smile and a good to see you. I said, “Because that’s how I feel.”
     “But you don’t even know him.” She sounded appalled.
     “I don’t have to know somebody to feel loving towards them.”
     “Nobody ever really feels loving towards someone, unless they know them.”
     “I don’t know what to tell you.”
     “I mean I know when I like somebody, or, sometimes, you know, sometimes you know straight away you don’t like someone.”
     “Hold up.”
     Her head tilts. The movement asks, “What?”
     “How is it knowing you like or don’t like someone without knowing them works, and feeling loving towards someone you don’t know makes no sense to you?”

“It’s two different things.”

He knew the healthiest word and said it. “Okay.”

Two hours later they were out for a walk. A neighbor down the street had a box of puppies out front so they could get some sun. He watched her face light up with joy when she saw the puppies, hurrying over to get a closer look.

“Honey, look! We can adopt one, she said so. Look at them. Don’t you just love them?!”

He knew the healthiest word and said it. “Okay.”

Books Read 2021

Good Evening, Mrs Craven: The Wartime Stories of Mollie Panter-DownesPanter-Downes, Mollie
The Prime Minister, Volume 1Trollope, Anthony
The Prime Minister, Volume 2Trollope, Anthony
The Duke’s Children (Palliser, #6)Trollope, Anthony
Rachel RayTrollope, Anthony
The Macdermots of BallycloranTrollope, Anthony
Ayala’s AngelTrollope, Anthony
Lucky JimAmis, Kingsley
The Corner That Held ThemWarner, Sylvia Townsend
The Rise of Silas LaphamHowells, William Dean
Education of Henry Adams. TheAdams, Henry
Lolly WillowesWarner, Sylvia Townsend
Pudd’nhead WilsonTwain, Mark
The NewcomesThackeray, William Makepeace
Their Wedding JourneyHowells, William Dean
The Groote Park MurderCrofts, Freeman Wills
A Hazard of New FortunesHowells, William Dean
The Ponson CaseCrofts, Freeman Wills
The CaskCrofts, Freeman Wills
Their Silver Wedding JourneyHowells, William Dean
Mystery in the ChannelCrofts, Freeman Wills
Indian SummerHowells, William Dean
The Hog’s Back Mystery (Inspector French #10)Crofts, Freeman Wills
William Dean Howells: A Writer’s LifeGoodman, Susan E.
The Middle Temple MurderFletcher, J.S.
The Mystery of the Hushing PoolFletcher, J.S.
The Middle of ThingsFletcher, J.S.
The Rayner-Slade AmalgamationFletcher, J.S.
The Orange-Yellow DiamondFletcher, J.S.
Scarhaven KeepFletcher, J.S.
Old New York: Four NovellasWharton, Edith
The TouchstoneWharton, Edith
Madame de TreymesWharton, Edith
In the Mayor’s ParlourFletcher, J.S.
Psmith, Journalist (Psmith, #3)Wodehouse, P.G.
A Chance AcquaintanceHowells, William Dean
Snow (St. John Strafford, #1)Banville, John

Barrasso Defends Hang Mike Pence

In the wake of former President Donald Trump’s defense of those calling for the hanging of former Vice-President Mike Pence during the January 6 insurrection, , a telling exchange occurred between ABC’s chief Washington correspondent, Jonathan Karl, and John Barrasso of Wyoming, the third-ranking Republican in the Senate. I thought an edit would save a bit of time, and help Barrasso make his point with, well, pin-point accuracy.

Actual exchange:

Karl: “Can your party tolerate a leader who defends murderous chants against his own vice-president?”

Barrasso: “Well, let me just say, the Republican party is incredibly united right now and … I think the more that the Democrats and the press becomes obsessed with President Trump, I think the better it is for the Republican party. President Trump brings lots of energy to the party, he’s an enduring force.”

This writer’s edit.

Karl: “Can your party tolerate a leader who defends murderous chants against his own vice-president?”

Barrasso: “Yes.”

Tennessee GOP Chooses Child Murder

If landlords knew there was a potentially lethal gas mixed in with the air in their apartment building and decided not to tell the tenants, they’d no doubt be criminally charged were any of the tenants to get sick or, worse still, die. If, after learning about the presence of the lethal gas, the landlords decided to tell the tenants the building air was safe, would they be charged with first-degree murder? 

I have the same question for the conscience-free, lust for power, murderous officials in Tennessee. According to Brett Kelman of the Nashville Tennessean, “The Tennessee Department of Health will halt all adolescent vaccine outreach – not just for coronavirus, but all diseases – amid pressure from Republican state lawmakers, according to an internal report and agency emails obtained by the Tennessean. If the health department must issue any information about vaccines, staff are instructed to strip the agency logo off the documents.”

Any state lawmaker advocating for this assault on the lives of children! has made a decision he or she knows will end the lives of children. They should be charged with first-degree murder too.